16 Candles

I am now on my bedroom floor, trying to soothe, though unsuccessfully, a surge of panic/anxiety in my chest.

I am in-between tears and a cup full of hope. I feel like I am going to die tomorrow yet at the same time, it feels like life will finally begin tomorrow.

What's it going to be from here?

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Take me home

Two swift days before I turn really old.

Been battling inner demons last few days. Fears. Fear of growing old. Fear of being alone forever. Fear of having baseless fears like these. Of course I know these fears are unfounded and will soon be forgotten but sometimes, when I take a look from the other side, I cannot help but wonder about the 'what-if's.

Still, I will get by with the help of my friends.

Some are real and well...some are not.

You're right.

One DID fly over the cuckoo's nest.

Okay.

Let's go out.


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Turn down for what?

Hey.

We are already well into the 8th day of 2015.

Anything new?
Anything different?
Will anything change?


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