The last one

Weather's cool, stomach's full.

Are we ready for the last nap of the year?

Join me!

zzzzzzzzz


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Should I speak of love?

I don't know how to love him.
What to do, how to move him.
I've been changed, yes really changed. 
In these past few days, when I've seen myself, 
I seem like someone else.

I don't know how to take this. 
I don't see why he moves me.
He's a man. 
He's just a man. 
And I've had so many men before, 
In very many ways, 
He's just one more.

Should I bring him down? 
Should I scream and shout? 
Should I speak of love, 
Let my feelings out? 

I never thought I'd come to this. 
What's it all about?

Don't you think it's rather funny, 
I should be in this position. 
I'm the one who's always been 
So calm, so cool, 
No lover's fool, 
Running every show. 
He scares me so.

I never thought I'd come to this. 
What's it all about?

Yet, if he said he loved me, 
I'd be lost.
I'd be frightened. 
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope. 
I'd turn my head.
 I'd back away. 
I wouldn't want to know. 
He scares me so. 
I want him so. 
I love him so. - I Don't Know How To Love Him

Well that's from Jesus Christ Superstar...one of those musicals I am dying to watch. Anyhow, that's not the point. I was brought back to this song just about recently, thanks to watching my friends' marital experiences.

I have seen a few things and boy, did they scare the living spinster out of me. Just how much do we know the person we have come to share our lives with? Is it important to lay out the cards before we choose to be known as man and wife? How on earth did those couples who went through arranged marriage did it and manage to stay married forever?

How can we not bite the fruits of temptation and not succumb to adultery, doubt, jealousy? Is faith enough not to make us weak? If that's the case, why have we heard cases of men and women of faith succumbing? If we use the notion that we are only humans, then what should we be to avoid all these?

By becoming...better humans?
By not being humans?
What?

I am not thinking too much. If you were to ask my boss, she would tell you that I dont think at all (gee, thanks boss). These are just some questions which arose recently from real-time situations. Being someone who is really cautious when it comes to relationships, I wonder if many couples really know the people they are marrying.

Were they caught up on the romantic notion of a beautiful wedding? Were they caught up on the idea of growing old with kids surrounding them that they forgot to focus on the 'now'? How did the love they plant become so toxic over a period of time? Are married couples allowed to just stop trying and call it quits?

We always say God have the answers (sorry, not them Smarties chocolates) and we always take things that happen to us as signs from him. For example, constant miscarriages mean you are not fated to have a baby, three motorcycle accidents mean riding pillion is not for you, etc...but strangely, missing three meals dont make you stay away from food forever. Heartaches dont make you stop wanting to find love.

So why should you quit trying just because you have a setback or two...or five?


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Almost an exit

They made up their minds
And they started packing
They left before the sun came up that day
An exit to eternal summer slacking
But where were they going without ever knowing the way?

They drank up the wine
And they got to talking
They now had more important things to say
And when the car broke down they started walking
Where were they going without ever knowing the way?

Anyone could see the road that they walk on is paved in gold
And it's always summer, they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows wandering off somewhere
They wont make it home
But they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happy there today, today

The children woke up
And they couldn't find 'em
They left before the sun came up that day
They just drove off and left it all behind 'em
But where were they going without ever knowing the way?

Anyone could see the road that they walk on is paved in gold
And it's always summer, they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows wandering off somewhere
They wont make it home
But they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happy there today, today - The Way, Fastball

...

My January theme song.

Why?

Stay tune.



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Luke 14:10

Crashing a staycation.

But...where's the people?


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Look closer

Just woke up and I thought...wow...it's almost Xmas and that means the year is coming to an end.

That means, January is nearing (o, Sherlock!) and that my birthday is almost here.

I examined my face and my...how it has aged.



Need to find someone who'll appreciate this face pronto before it continues to oxidise.

Heh.

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Let's get lost tonight

I can always count on 1 December night every year where worries go out of the window. A night where we dont judge others and we're all out to have mindless fun.

Last night was that night.

After whole day spent covering the award show (work), I found myself in the company of some old friends (0030hrs!!) at a cozy cafe at Hong Kong Street.

Things got crazy...as always and we ended up 2 hrs later at a gay bar at Tanjong Pagar where I:

* Waited in line for the toilet, waiting for 2 men to finish their deed inside the cubicle

* Promised TB that we're going to get married in 4 years' time and that I'll wait for him to buy a house

* Danced with 2 men at the same time. 2 gay men..

* Chatted rubbish with a pair of happy men.

Got home at 0500hrs.

Twas a good night.

Love you, guys.


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Elementary school massacre

Elementary school massacre: 27 killed, including 20 kids, at Connecticut school


Woke up to such sad news.


...guns...

Seven Days

"Seven Days" was all she wrote
A kind of ultimatum note
She gave to me, she gave to me
When I thought the field had cleared
It seems another suit appeared
To challenge me, woe is me
Though I hate to make a choice
My options are decreasing mostly rapidly
Well we'll see
I don't think she'd bluff this time
I really have to make her mine
It's plain to see
It's him or me

Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late

The fact that he's six feet ten
Might instill fear in other men
But not in me, The Mighty Flea
Ask if I am mouse or man
The mirror squeaked, away I ran
He'll murder me in time for his tea
Does it bother me at all
My rival is Neanderthal, it makes me think
Perhaps I need a drink
IQ is no problem here
We won't be playing Scrabble for her hand I fear
I need that beer

Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late

Seven days will quickly go
The fact remains, I love her so
Seven days, so many ways
But I can't run away

Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late
Do I have to tell a story
Of a thousand rainy days since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me that ends up getting wet

I am meeting Sting tonight for some...ahem...adult company.
Well, even though he's billion of years older, Sting is still a hot, sexy beast to me.
That voice.
Oh!

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Little Venice

The best part of the trip so far?

The river cruise down Melaka River.

Like Venice.

Okay...a tiny bit like Venice.

;)


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C for...

...cendol.


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Melak Melak Melaka

On a 2d1n work trip to Melaka and Legoland.

Managed to get parents and niece to come with me. They paid, of course.

So....zzzzzz.


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Go back to December

See the clock? It reads 1:08am.

3 Dec, 2012.

Where did the last 11 months of your life go?

Were they good? Did they make up a good year?

Did you feel the love and energy around you?

Did you renew old faith or find new one?

Are you settled or are you still looking?

Have you reached the end or have only just began?

Have I met you? Did I pass you by?

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