This sucks.
Don’t cry, dammit
At least, not here.
Don’t break, don’t crack.
Lump in throat
Must stay in there.
A quality life isn’t supposed to be like this.
Pummelled, battered and emotionally abused.
You know, I’m stronger than many
So now I understand the history.
Still, nobody should live with this.
And we’re right back at the beginning.
This sucks.
###
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
Gurindam
Volcano
"Don't hold yourself like that
You'll hurt your knees
I kissed your mouth and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea
Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask what I give to you
Is just what I'm going through
This is nothing new
No no just another phase of finding what I really need
Is what makes me bleed
And like a new disease she's still too young to treat
Like a distant tree
Volcanoes melt me down
She's still too young
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me"
Good night.
###
"Don't hold yourself like that
You'll hurt your knees
I kissed your mouth and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea
Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask what I give to you
Is just what I'm going through
This is nothing new
No no just another phase of finding what I really need
Is what makes me bleed
And like a new disease she's still too young to treat
Like a distant tree
Volcanoes melt me down
She's still too young
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me"
Good night.
###
Id, ego & super ego
"Delicate"
We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
###
We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
###
Them girls
Tonight...we are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun
###
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Kow Kow Kowloon!
0435hrs.
In about 3.5 hours, I'm going to be on a budget flight to good ol' Hong Kong.
After being in Hong Kong for a few times, this will be the first I am bringing the parents, sister and niece. That means one thing...no 'haram' food.
Haha.
To Kowlooooooooon!
###
In about 3.5 hours, I'm going to be on a budget flight to good ol' Hong Kong.
After being in Hong Kong for a few times, this will be the first I am bringing the parents, sister and niece. That means one thing...no 'haram' food.
Haha.
To Kowlooooooooon!
###
Monday, March 12, 2012
Child
After years of being on this thing, I only knew today that it was actually a pelican.
I miss my childhood.
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Sunday, March 11, 2012
Magic dust!
This version by Joss Stone and Jeff Beck...
...never fails to make me want to have angry sex.
In my imagination.
I think.
Metaphorically?
Maybe?
It's almost 4am.
###
...never fails to make me want to have angry sex.
In my imagination.
I think.
Metaphorically?
Maybe?
It's almost 4am.
###
Loving angels instead
It's the 'down' effect of wrapping an issue. A bit of a depression cause time was gone in a jiffy. And the thought of having to pick up the spirit again for the next issue (in a few days' time) is not making it better.
Also, my good friend is getting married. I'm going to be a bridesmaid for the 4th time. I'm happy and sad at the same.
Silly.
Four weddings and a funeral, anyone?
###
Also, my good friend is getting married. I'm going to be a bridesmaid for the 4th time. I'm happy and sad at the same.
Silly.
Four weddings and a funeral, anyone?
###
Thursday, March 08, 2012
An old friend gave this to me...
30 Reasons to Smile
by Yan Kow Cheong on Thursday, 8 March 2012 at 11:16 •
What would some of the numerical, mathematical, or quantitative things that would make your day? Would these two-and-half dozen items tickle your "mathematical bone"?
1. A Facebook invitation to connect with a long-lost friend thousands of miles away—across the other side of the continent.
2. Finding geometric shapes in the clouds.
3. The smell of a math book fresh from the printer.
4. Seeing a 7-year-old helping a blind 70-year-old crossing the road.
5. Your child sneaking in her phone even when she's answering to nature's call.
6. Your son or daughter is undecided whether he or she'd go out with that girl or boy from his or her class.
7. Double rainbows.
8. Hearing that a friend or colleague has successfully gone through her chemotherapy sessions, and she's recovering fast.
9. The public library opens on Boxing Day.
10. Finding the clue to solving a mathematical problem, or understanding the "why" of a mathematical result or theorem.
11. Going to a public forum and finding that the free food there tastes better than those served at five-star hotels.
12. Middle-aged women with heavy make-ups and dyed hair, and they look pretty ugly.
13. Men and women who wear winter clothes in humid, hot Singapore.
14. Your hamster or guinea pig greeting you when you come back home.
15. When you find that you're the only one using a shopping mall's toilet, or the only passenger in a public bus.
16. Ordering a dessert you hadn't had for ages at a food carnival.
17. A free copy of a newly published book from an author-friend himself, which you plan to buy at your next visit to the bookstore.
18. Grammatically correct spam e-mails, where the language proficiency is better than those sent by your editors.
19. Being able to access your e-mail at a location where the Wi-Fi signal is quasi-inexistent.
20. Preachers who blushed on expounding on topics such as sex, lying, and secret sins.
21. Hearing someone fart loudly in a train or in a public library.
22. Seeing semi-naked men whose breasts are larger than those of most women, or whose bellies make them look like they're 18 months pregnant.
23. An old folk nervously solving a sudoku.
24. Receiving those politically correct rejection letters, saying that your skills don't match the requirements of the positions applied.
25. The seat next to you staying empty on a plane.
26. Shopkeepers who use the abacus to find the total amount you need to pay.
27. Remember composing your first SMS or e-mail.
28. Finding an out-of-print math book at a second-hand bookstore.
29. Spotting a slide rule or logarithm table at a flea market—"vintage math," or "math down the memory lane."
30. Your average grade seven math student giving private tuition to a grade two student.
(Ed: YKC, a Mathematical genius, miscounted. He gave 31!)
31. Seeing your child or student solve an elementary math problem that you couldn't solve when you're at her age.
© Yan Kow Cheong, March 8, 2012
###
by Yan Kow Cheong on Thursday, 8 March 2012 at 11:16 •
What would some of the numerical, mathematical, or quantitative things that would make your day? Would these two-and-half dozen items tickle your "mathematical bone"?
1. A Facebook invitation to connect with a long-lost friend thousands of miles away—across the other side of the continent.
2. Finding geometric shapes in the clouds.
3. The smell of a math book fresh from the printer.
4. Seeing a 7-year-old helping a blind 70-year-old crossing the road.
5. Your child sneaking in her phone even when she's answering to nature's call.
6. Your son or daughter is undecided whether he or she'd go out with that girl or boy from his or her class.
7. Double rainbows.
8. Hearing that a friend or colleague has successfully gone through her chemotherapy sessions, and she's recovering fast.
9. The public library opens on Boxing Day.
10. Finding the clue to solving a mathematical problem, or understanding the "why" of a mathematical result or theorem.
11. Going to a public forum and finding that the free food there tastes better than those served at five-star hotels.
12. Middle-aged women with heavy make-ups and dyed hair, and they look pretty ugly.
13. Men and women who wear winter clothes in humid, hot Singapore.
14. Your hamster or guinea pig greeting you when you come back home.
15. When you find that you're the only one using a shopping mall's toilet, or the only passenger in a public bus.
16. Ordering a dessert you hadn't had for ages at a food carnival.
17. A free copy of a newly published book from an author-friend himself, which you plan to buy at your next visit to the bookstore.
18. Grammatically correct spam e-mails, where the language proficiency is better than those sent by your editors.
19. Being able to access your e-mail at a location where the Wi-Fi signal is quasi-inexistent.
20. Preachers who blushed on expounding on topics such as sex, lying, and secret sins.
21. Hearing someone fart loudly in a train or in a public library.
22. Seeing semi-naked men whose breasts are larger than those of most women, or whose bellies make them look like they're 18 months pregnant.
23. An old folk nervously solving a sudoku.
24. Receiving those politically correct rejection letters, saying that your skills don't match the requirements of the positions applied.
25. The seat next to you staying empty on a plane.
26. Shopkeepers who use the abacus to find the total amount you need to pay.
27. Remember composing your first SMS or e-mail.
28. Finding an out-of-print math book at a second-hand bookstore.
29. Spotting a slide rule or logarithm table at a flea market—"vintage math," or "math down the memory lane."
30. Your average grade seven math student giving private tuition to a grade two student.
(Ed: YKC, a Mathematical genius, miscounted. He gave 31!)
31. Seeing your child or student solve an elementary math problem that you couldn't solve when you're at her age.
© Yan Kow Cheong, March 8, 2012
###
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
Don't want to cry...don't want to cry no more
After yesterday's horrid, horrid fiasco at work, this is awesome!
Awesome!
:)
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Dear Ms Mona,
One thing I learnt from those long hours of Literature lessons in secondary school and JC was the need to appreciate all that Life has to offer you. I still remember very well, the feeling of being despondent and not knowing what went wrong at the end of Year 1 in JC. Life then seemed to be a masterpiece of duplicity, mistaken assumptions, confusion and the bitter twang of failure. It was not a pleasant feeling, and I felt that I was at the end of the road. What had gone wrong? So I started to search within myself, but I was as unsure as ever if I could really find the answer.
Then your letter came back to me, and in it; you told me that the central problem could be the environment, since not everyone takes to a new environment like fishes do to water. You mentioned of the similar situation that you had studying overseas in Australia, and told me to take heart. The comfort I drew from that letter stayed with me throughout the late nights spent re-learning every subject from scratch ( from topics as diverse as Zimbabwe under Robert Mugabe to the essentials of poetry comparison for Literature , the Korean War for history, and particularly watching Youtube videos on Economics to buff up the pitiful little that I found myself knowing) , often into the wee hours of the morning throughout the whole of the November/December break in 2010.
It was draining both physically and mentally; the skin of a finger on my right hand actually became red and hurt because of the constant writing , and to sit at the desktop studying whilst my peers were enjoying the last few days of sunshine before Year 2 began). It was draining, but I drew solace from the thought that you had more obstacles in your way having to study as a stranger in a strange land. Surely my present 'suffering' paled in comparison to that.
Someone believed in me and recognised my effort, and it was now my turn to justify her belief.
That was the least I could do.
The greatest reward I got a year on, was to see and share in the happiness of my teachers on Results Day , and to know that I had not let them down. All the late nights and the pain became worth it in that instant. It is through the pain of such past experiences that I know that University Education will not be a walk in the park. If anything, it might even be harder than anything I have done so far. Subjects like a Literature minor, a major in political science, sociology, economics , english language or history seem formidable in content and appearance. But when the time comes to step into the temple of higher learning, do it we must, and do it we shall.
You never forget a good teacher, Ms Mona.
I hope we will stay in touch for many years to come..
Yours Sincerely,
Tng Kwang
---------------------------------------------
:)
###
Awesome!
:)
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Dear Ms Mona,
One thing I learnt from those long hours of Literature lessons in secondary school and JC was the need to appreciate all that Life has to offer you. I still remember very well, the feeling of being despondent and not knowing what went wrong at the end of Year 1 in JC. Life then seemed to be a masterpiece of duplicity, mistaken assumptions, confusion and the bitter twang of failure. It was not a pleasant feeling, and I felt that I was at the end of the road. What had gone wrong? So I started to search within myself, but I was as unsure as ever if I could really find the answer.
Then your letter came back to me, and in it; you told me that the central problem could be the environment, since not everyone takes to a new environment like fishes do to water. You mentioned of the similar situation that you had studying overseas in Australia, and told me to take heart. The comfort I drew from that letter stayed with me throughout the late nights spent re-learning every subject from scratch ( from topics as diverse as Zimbabwe under Robert Mugabe to the essentials of poetry comparison for Literature , the Korean War for history, and particularly watching Youtube videos on Economics to buff up the pitiful little that I found myself knowing) , often into the wee hours of the morning throughout the whole of the November/December break in 2010.
It was draining both physically and mentally; the skin of a finger on my right hand actually became red and hurt because of the constant writing , and to sit at the desktop studying whilst my peers were enjoying the last few days of sunshine before Year 2 began). It was draining, but I drew solace from the thought that you had more obstacles in your way having to study as a stranger in a strange land. Surely my present 'suffering' paled in comparison to that.
Someone believed in me and recognised my effort, and it was now my turn to justify her belief.
That was the least I could do.
The greatest reward I got a year on, was to see and share in the happiness of my teachers on Results Day , and to know that I had not let them down. All the late nights and the pain became worth it in that instant. It is through the pain of such past experiences that I know that University Education will not be a walk in the park. If anything, it might even be harder than anything I have done so far. Subjects like a Literature minor, a major in political science, sociology, economics , english language or history seem formidable in content and appearance. But when the time comes to step into the temple of higher learning, do it we must, and do it we shall.
You never forget a good teacher, Ms Mona.
I hope we will stay in touch for many years to come..
Yours Sincerely,
Tng Kwang
---------------------------------------------
:)
###
Tuesday, March 06, 2012
Anthology
"Rancangan antologi Projek Skrip sudah pun hampir tamat dan walaupun rancangannya singkat - hanya lapan episod saja - ia telah menjadi wadah yang baik bagi mereka yang ingin mencuba bakat mereka dalam bidang penulisan drama.
Dari apa yang saya lihat, peserta-peserta yang mengambil bahagian dalam rancangan ini telah mendapati bimbingan yang baik dan konsep cerita yang akhirnya dipersembahkan juga boleh tahan untuk mereka yang baru mula melibatkan diri dalam bidang penulisan skrip ini.
Ini bukan suatu perkara yang senang dan bagi mereka yang pernah mencuba, menulis sebuah drama amat mencabar kerana penulis harus memastikan yang jalan ceritanya mempunyai daya penarik atau hook yang kuat, yang dapat menarik penonton untuk mengetahui cerita dari mula hingga akhir.
Namun, seperti biasa, jika ada yang suka rancangan ini, pastinya ada penonton lain yang tidak suka. Ada yang mengatakan rancangan Projek Skrip ini hambar dan tidak patut ditayangkan di waktu perdana pada 8.30 malam.
Seorang penerbit dari sebuah syarikat penerbitan tempatan mengatakan drama-drama yang ditayangkan boleh tahan tetapi ada beberapa yang baginya, kurang perkembangan watak. Komen rakan penerbit ini membuatkan saya terfikir. Reaksi yang dirasakan oleh penonton ni, apakah ia kerana skrip drama yang kurang berkesan, lakonan yang lemah atau arahannya yang tidak kena?"
.... and nobody will know the end of this piece.
###
Dari apa yang saya lihat, peserta-peserta yang mengambil bahagian dalam rancangan ini telah mendapati bimbingan yang baik dan konsep cerita yang akhirnya dipersembahkan juga boleh tahan untuk mereka yang baru mula melibatkan diri dalam bidang penulisan skrip ini.
Ini bukan suatu perkara yang senang dan bagi mereka yang pernah mencuba, menulis sebuah drama amat mencabar kerana penulis harus memastikan yang jalan ceritanya mempunyai daya penarik atau hook yang kuat, yang dapat menarik penonton untuk mengetahui cerita dari mula hingga akhir.
Namun, seperti biasa, jika ada yang suka rancangan ini, pastinya ada penonton lain yang tidak suka. Ada yang mengatakan rancangan Projek Skrip ini hambar dan tidak patut ditayangkan di waktu perdana pada 8.30 malam.
Seorang penerbit dari sebuah syarikat penerbitan tempatan mengatakan drama-drama yang ditayangkan boleh tahan tetapi ada beberapa yang baginya, kurang perkembangan watak. Komen rakan penerbit ini membuatkan saya terfikir. Reaksi yang dirasakan oleh penonton ni, apakah ia kerana skrip drama yang kurang berkesan, lakonan yang lemah atau arahannya yang tidak kena?"
.... and nobody will know the end of this piece.
###
Monday, March 05, 2012
Lego house
...cause I'm out of luck?
P/S: I have Bruno Mars' 'It Will Rain' but I think that will traumatise you further.
###
P/S: I have Bruno Mars' 'It Will Rain' but I think that will traumatise you further.
###
Sunday, March 04, 2012
Saturday, March 03, 2012
Sek fun yum cha
A very last minute plan.
Early this week, the father decided to go on a family trip during mid March.
After much deliberation (or rather, hard selling on my part), we have decided to go to Hong Kong because of my familiarity with that place.
So..yeay!
Hong Kong!
###
Early this week, the father decided to go on a family trip during mid March.
After much deliberation (or rather, hard selling on my part), we have decided to go to Hong Kong because of my familiarity with that place.
So..yeay!
Hong Kong!
###
Sad drunk & poorly
Not feeling so great.
Was on MC on Friday. Came home late the night before and only had Maggi dinner at midnight. Fell asleep while eating in the living room. Woke up with a jolt 3 hrs later, staggered to the room and woke up again 5 hrs later with a splitting headache and body aches.
By 9 I was slipping off the couch at the clinic cause I just felt so listless and confused. Couldnt really pinpoint what was wrong so maybe...the doctor just came up with wild guesses and gave me a placebo.
Took meds, slept at noon and only to wake up 3 hrs later with a swollen right eye...stye!
Like what?
Went out with family for dinner..ate meds when I came home and now, diarrhoea.
Give me a break.
###
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Don't forget to remember me
Dear Ms Mona,
Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, two years have gone by and I have completed my A levels. The results were released today and I did quite well for my subjects ( History, Literature , Economics, Mathematics and General Paper) , and beyond anything I could ever have imagined for Economics.
I got an A for H2 Economics!!
An A for English Literature, History and General Paper.
I scored 88 points out of 90 points.
I could hardly believe my eyes when I first saw the result slip, and I have been trying to process that knowledge all night. The desktop clock reads 11:31pm , Friday Night. A normal clock moves in cycles, and that is a very befitting comparison when you consider how one grows as time goes by.
I used to hate Economics two years ago in 2010, thinking it to be a horrid subject with horrid content and beastly graphs that one would be hard pressed to make any sense of.
How times change.
Now, I've come to find that I appreciate Economics for what it is today in our lives, and perhaps even come to admire it. The issues of macroeconomics in striving to achieve efficiency in resource allocation and equity in income distribution covers areas as diverse as the efforts made by governments around the world to counter traffic congestion (an over-allocation of vehicles at any one time) and the numerous Occupy Protests all over the world. There is an ineffable beauty in being able to apply what you know from economic content to get more out of the articles that you read in the news everyday.
Thank you very very much for your encouragement and support, Ms Mona.. Up till today, I still remember what you said on Facebook; to strive on, but strive on with understanding and give it time, since not everyone takes to a new educational level like fish to water. Your efforts have made the late nights spent studying and the pain that little bit more bearable, and made the journey, as tough as it was at times, all that more comforting.
In the words of the newest MOE teaching commercial :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GETzOHRPqus
A teacher might not remember when he or she makes a difference.
A student will never forget.
Yours Sincerely,
Tng Kwang
.........................................
Dear Tng Kwang,
As I read your email, on a day which I had taken MC and was declared unfit for work, it put a huge smile on my face and made my day a little more cheery.
I dont know why you would still bother to remember me, considering our paths crossed only but for a short while. Nevertheless, I'm very glad you still have me in your thoughts and that you share your great news with me. I am touched, honoured and definitely happy to be able to know someone who is as grounded and sincere as you are.
I hope this piece of good news...this great result...means a lifetime of more fantastic things to come. Hopefully the course of your future is clearer now and that you have found, or at least figured a way to, the path of your dreams, and as long as you're willing to share it, I will always be here to read and feel your joy, your pain and your achievements.
Congratulations once again, TK. I bet your parents must be very proud of you, even if they didn't tell you. Have I child like you, I would be over the moon. So, have a good weekend. It's yours to rejoice.
Sharing your joy,
Mona
....
:)
Another sign I should go back to teaching.
###
Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, two years have gone by and I have completed my A levels. The results were released today and I did quite well for my subjects ( History, Literature , Economics, Mathematics and General Paper) , and beyond anything I could ever have imagined for Economics.
I got an A for H2 Economics!!
An A for English Literature, History and General Paper.
I scored 88 points out of 90 points.
I could hardly believe my eyes when I first saw the result slip, and I have been trying to process that knowledge all night. The desktop clock reads 11:31pm , Friday Night. A normal clock moves in cycles, and that is a very befitting comparison when you consider how one grows as time goes by.
I used to hate Economics two years ago in 2010, thinking it to be a horrid subject with horrid content and beastly graphs that one would be hard pressed to make any sense of.
How times change.
Now, I've come to find that I appreciate Economics for what it is today in our lives, and perhaps even come to admire it. The issues of macroeconomics in striving to achieve efficiency in resource allocation and equity in income distribution covers areas as diverse as the efforts made by governments around the world to counter traffic congestion (an over-allocation of vehicles at any one time) and the numerous Occupy Protests all over the world. There is an ineffable beauty in being able to apply what you know from economic content to get more out of the articles that you read in the news everyday.
Thank you very very much for your encouragement and support, Ms Mona.. Up till today, I still remember what you said on Facebook; to strive on, but strive on with understanding and give it time, since not everyone takes to a new educational level like fish to water. Your efforts have made the late nights spent studying and the pain that little bit more bearable, and made the journey, as tough as it was at times, all that more comforting.
In the words of the newest MOE teaching commercial :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GETzOHRPqus
A teacher might not remember when he or she makes a difference.
A student will never forget.
Yours Sincerely,
Tng Kwang
.........................................
Dear Tng Kwang,
As I read your email, on a day which I had taken MC and was declared unfit for work, it put a huge smile on my face and made my day a little more cheery.
I dont know why you would still bother to remember me, considering our paths crossed only but for a short while. Nevertheless, I'm very glad you still have me in your thoughts and that you share your great news with me. I am touched, honoured and definitely happy to be able to know someone who is as grounded and sincere as you are.
I hope this piece of good news...this great result...means a lifetime of more fantastic things to come. Hopefully the course of your future is clearer now and that you have found, or at least figured a way to, the path of your dreams, and as long as you're willing to share it, I will always be here to read and feel your joy, your pain and your achievements.
Congratulations once again, TK. I bet your parents must be very proud of you, even if they didn't tell you. Have I child like you, I would be over the moon. So, have a good weekend. It's yours to rejoice.
Sharing your joy,
Mona
....
:)
Another sign I should go back to teaching.
###
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