Ocean deep

Man U lost to Barca at the of 90 minute: 1-3. Pedro, Messi and Villa scored for the Catalans while Rooney scored for the Pommies.

Yes I am a little sad but this was my dream final at the start of the season so yeah...dont have anything else to complain other than to comment how overwhelmed Man U players were in the game. I think fatigue has got to do with it...with some playing against Blackpool and Juve all within a week. But ah...excuses, we know.

The best team won and God bless you, Pep Guardiola.

To the next season!

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Live like you were dying

30 minutes into the champions league final between Man united and Barcelona and the latter is leading by one goal to none, courtesy of Pedro. So far we have been playing poorly and hernandez seems a little overawed ... Goooooooalllll by Rooney!

Equalizer.

Different ball game now.

Okay bye!

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You could be happy

28.
Tall.
Career in advertising.

But...but..one thing I cannot do well and that is flirting. Oh well.

*runs back and hides under a rock*


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Super bass

You know, I didnt want to like this video. The first time I watched it, I was like..urgh, so demeaning. Then, the song got stuck in my head. I watched it the second time (and the many times after) and I fell in love with Nicki Minaj's...derriere.

So much for finding it demeaning.



So colourful. It's like the sexier version of the Oompa Loompas!!



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Have A 3 Way

Season finale of Saturday Night Live featured Justin Timberlake and Lady Gaga!!!







SNL havent been funny for a long time (post-Fey/Poehler) but I think this finale did it a little more justice.

JT should take up permanent residence.



P/S: Pirates of the Caribbean 4 was actually quite good!


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Saying sorry

I heard the news about the passing of your father. I am sorry that you guys did not have the chance to mend the hurt. I am sorry that you could not see him for the last time because he disowned you as you chose to go with love instead of the terrible bindings dictated by society. I am sorry to know that the child in your womb would never meet his/her grandfather...or anyone else from your family. I am terribly sorry.

You were one of those challenging students a teacher would meet at least once in her lifetime. I mentored you in your Journalism class, listened to your woes during your internship stint with one of the most successful local publishing companies. I was there to witness your Monash convocation, standing side by side with your boyfriend Steve. I was happy for you but sad at the same time because your parents should be witnessing this happy moment.

All your life you had been vying for their attention. Alas, you were never good enough when compared to your 2 geniuses of a sister (they were both my tuition teachers in secondary school!). You were always the black sheep and eventually, you slipped away.

I dont condone severing family ties, cohabitation or having a child out of wedlock but you did what you had to do, I respect your decisions and I am thankful that despite all these, you keep me virtually close. Deep down, I admire your feistiness and your belief in fighting for love. I wish you all the love and the encouragement for you to sail through these tumultous waves of life. I wish you strength to go through the seasons of your life.



:)


P/S: Dixie Chicks' Landslide never fails to make me weep. The song reminds me of the fragility of womanhood and on the other hand, acknowledges the steely nature of the females.


P/P/S: Caught Micmacs and Biutiful over the weekend. The latter almost had me slitting my wrist. So depressing.



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Hush

What does it feel like not to talk for a day? How important is it to have your voice heard? Would life go differently for you if you don't speak?

My good friend talks too much. I am not sure if it is because she really enjoys talking and sharing everything under the bloody hot sun with me or it is because she is uncomfortable with silence and therefore finds a dire need to fill in space with her voice and sometimes the talk of nothing. I would usually listen but frequently, I'd just switch off because the monologue would be about her colleague's daughter's dentist visit...her boss' holiday trip...bla bla bla.

Often, I caught my mind wondering off mid-rambling and I would scramble back on track with quizzical looks, nods of agreement or some hmms and ahs. I must be one of the most unresponsive women she must have encountered. At times I felt bad...most times I just looked at her and had this urged to grab her shoulders and screamed "Stop talking!"

I think silence is a huge problem for many. Still, incessant chatter drives me nut. I cannot imagine being stuck to a gibbering nutcase for hours. Just because you have a mouth, it doesnt mean everyone is interested in the things that may come out of it.

But my guilt lies in the friendship. I shouldnt be feeling irritated. Urgh.

I have been on dates where the men talked..and talked...and boy did they talk. In fact all of them were quite the talker. I guess that was also why none worked out. I was attracted to their thoughts and then, their thoughts got too loud and they began to fill my brain as noise. Some could have assumed my state of pensiveness as a go-ahead to keep on yapping..some thought I was an empty vessel who was waiting to be filled in with words. Some just found it hard to not talk about themselves.

Ah my...how did it get from noisy good friend to this?

You read this and may find these words as noise but being virtual, you can always choose to get away from this page. In real life...well..not that easy.

Sometimes you can find connection in silence. Sometimes being together in silnce is refreshing. Sometimes you have to give in to silence. Silence doesnt always mean disagreement. Silence doesnt have to be rebellion or stupidity..or ignorance.

Silence can be beautiful. It can be comforting. If you, like me, talk for a living, silence can be the best form of respite.

Now...where can I find someone who can understand that?


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Set fire to the rain

Gladys, this is for you...

...my sad rendition of Adele's Rolling In The Deep, ya'll.

(Caution...turn the volume low, please.)



Pitchy. I really apologise for the horrible chorus but hey...it makes Adele look even better!


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Illusion

One more month to see my Queen Kylie and this loyal subject is so, so, excited. So excited was she that she did a tribute.



Well, pardon the overindulgence but ... ah come on.
Lighten up a little.
Your disco needs you.


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Afternoon delight

It's the weekend...first weekend upon tendering resignation/serving notice and wheeewooweeowwee (sorry Lil Wayne) it feels good.

The parents are going to Kuala Lumpur to ignite some 'halal' fire and get jiggy so that leaves me alone till Monday (the sister is seldom at home anyway). This is actually the best time to grab somebody and get funky on the table top, on the kitchen floor, on the couch...okay, not on my leather couch but yeah..get freaky.

But, of course, all these wont do for a Lone Ranger (or will they? hmm!) so I'll just be uber nerdy and play computer games and hog the TV till the cows come home.

Metaphor, people.
My parents aren't cows.
Moother.



:(


P/S: Just another pointless entry.


P/P/S: On the other hand, I've already signed a contract with the new company.


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Take this job and shove it

I tendered my resignation at 1800hrs just now.

I feel like Liberace on stage.

:)



Revived!


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Too hot to move, too hot to think

The weather is killing me. Took cab to work in the afternoon and then in the evening, I took cab to Peninsula Plaza for my evening class. The amount spent on cabs today is ... never mind.



"What dreadful hot weather we have! It keeps me in a continual state of inelegance" - Jane Austen.

You said it, sister!


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It's alright ma (I'm only bleeding)

It's Mother's Day and well...Happy Mother's Day, mother.

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Judas

MediaCorp is killing me.

The results are already out on Twitter. What the hell is MediaCorp doing? I am not uploading a result WITHOUT witnessing it myself.

Crap.

UPDATED AT 2357HRS:

1. Mountbatten SMC - PAP's Lim Biow Chuan (58.65% against NSP)

2. Bukit Panjang SMC - PAP's Teo Ho Pin (66.26% agasint SDP)

3. Radin Mas SMC - PAP's Sam Tan (67.11% against NSP)

4. Whampoa SMC - PAP's Heng Chee How (66.11% against NSP)

5. Moulmein-Kallang GRC - PAP (58.56% against WP)

6. Joo Chiat SMC - PAP's Charles Chong (51.01% against WP)

7. Hong Kah North SMC - PAP's AMy Khor (70.61% against SPP)

8. Marine Parade GRC - PAP (56.65% against NSP)

9. Hougang SMC - WP's Yaw Shin Leong (64.81% against PAP)

10. Pasir Ris-Punggol GRC - PAP (64.79% against SDA)

11. Tampines GRC - PAP (57.22% against NSP)

12. West Coast GRC - PAP (66.57% against RP)

13. Yuhua SMC - PAP's Grace Fu (66.87% against SDP)

14. Sengkang West SMC - PAP's Lam Pin Min (58.08% against WP)

15. AMK GRC - PAP (69.33% against RP)

16. Punggol East SMC - PAP's Michael Palmer (54.53% against SDA and WP)

17. Bishan-Toa Payoh GRC - PAP (56.94% against SPP)

18. East Coast GRC - PAP (54.83% against WP)

19. Pioneer SMC - PAP's Cedric Foo (60.73% against NSP)

20. Sembawang GRC - PAP (63.89% against SDP)

21. Nee Soon GRC - PAP (58.39% against WP)

22. Holland-Bukit Timah GRC - PAP (60.10% against SDP)

23. Choa Chu Kang GRC - PAP (61.2% against NSP)

24. Aljunied GRC - WP (54.71% against PAP)

25. Jurong GRC - PAP (66.96% against NSP)

26. Potong Pasir SMC - PAP's Sitoh Yi Pin (50.36% against SPP)


PAP - People's Action Party
NSP - National Solidarity Party
WP - Worker's Party
SDA - Singapore Democratic Alliance
SDP - Singapore Democratic Party
SPP - Singapore People's Party


This whole bloody thing ended at 0255hrs with PAP winning 81 seats and WP winning 6 seats.


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Last night

Lol! Okay okay..last one.

This band, Az Yet, they made something so vulgar sound so ...smooth. But, the video...hahahahahhaacoughahahhahahcoughhahahgagahahah.



Such cheesy shots.


P/S: No..I'm not frisky. Just in the mood for something smooth.


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Giving him something he can feel

Nothing screams "Wedding night!" louder than this. Okay..my wedding night at least, haha!



Delusions aside. This song is definitely up there in my sexy list. It's classy and seductive at the same time.

I like :)


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I don't remember

I've been reading up on Kay Redfield Jamison because I think there's something not quite right with me lately.

"There is a particular kind of pain, elation, loneliness, and terror involved in this kind of madness. When you're high it's tremendous. The ideas and feelings are fast and frequent like shooting stars, and you follow them until you find better and brighter ones. Shyness goes, the right words and gestures are suddenly there, the power to captivate others a felt certainty. There are interests found in uninteresting people. Sensuality is pervasive and the desire to seduce and be seduced irresistible. Feelings of ease, intensity, power, well-being, financial omnipotence, and euphoria pervade one's marrow.

But, somewhere this changes.

The fast ideas are too fast, and there are far too many, overwhelming confusion replaces clarity. Memory goes. Humor and absorption on friend's faces are replaced by fear and concern. Everything previously moving with the grain is now against.... you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and emerged totally in the blackest caves of the mind. You never knew those caves were there. It will never end, for madness carves its own reality."

How...and where...do I start?


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Mama he treats your daughter mean

3 more days to Mother's Day and I am just starting my scrapbooking project (aka Project Mayhem!) now.

0530hrs.

Yikes!!

I'm still in love with you

A conversation with a friend brought me to surf for some favourite old skool jams. I want to share a favourite back when I was 16 and nursing a very broken heart.



I was the only one I knew back then who loved this song. When we hung out at a friend's place to chill/karaoke, I was the only one who sang this while the rest did..whatever they were doing.

Listening back...hmm..sexy.


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Remember the name

So yes, Barca managed to hold Real Madrid to a 1-1 draw yesterday and with a 0-2 aggregate in hand from the first leg, Barca will be going to Wembley for the Champions League final.

Tonight, we're going to know who Barca are going to meet. Please let it be Manchester United.



Wembley!
Wembley!
We're the famous Man United
And we're going to Wembley!


:)


P/S: Hope that goes through.


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Party rock anthem

In an hour's time, the match which will determine who's going to the final Champions League play-off is going to start...EL CLASICO.



For the love of Messi, Villa and Guardiola, I hope it's Barca, even if it means they are going to meet beloved Manchester United in the final.

I love a good match.

Tonight it's Barca! Barca! Baaaaaaaaar-ca!


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As the world ends

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. (Buddha)


I hope there's a deeper meaning to this, Buds.
I dont think how I can miss the workplace right now.


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Everything is beautiful

I love you, Queen K!




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The One

Your call is getting stronger, my dear Queen. I cannot wait.



I'm the one...
Love me
Love me
Love me
Love me


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2,000 light years from home

I watched Rio and Thor on Sunday and they were good. Still, they did not move me as much as the flick I caught today - Duncan Jones' Source Code.



Damn it. This show is awesome..fantastic..beautiful. It made me cheer, weep (but then again, this is easy), fall into despair and ultimately, believe in second leases of life. Maybe I am exaggerating but damn it, I was really blown away.

Dear Jones, please continue to do what you are doing. Your previous offering - Moon is a mind-boggling favourite and if you can give me one more (just one more), I'll knight you as one of British new-age auteurs.

You can do it!


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Love Love Love

You're love's a permanent distraction
A perfect interaction
A feeling so extreme
I lost my appetite to eat
And I barely get to sleep
Cause you're even in my dreams
And I thought that I was strong
But I knew that all along
This was out of my control
So I fell into your hands
And I don't know where we'll land,
I'm just going with the flow

:)


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Dirty picture

By the way, after years of being camera-less (real camera...not one from a mobile phone or an mp3 player), I finally bought myself one. Courts was having some kind of sale and I just went in and bought something cheap.



Maybe I was just being paranoid but I felt the young salesgirl who was tending to me was kind of patronising. Sure, with only a $199 camera, how much commission can you get, right? But still...not everyone can afford a DSLR. In my case, not everyone wants a DSLR.

Okay..I do want it. If it's given to me free, that is. I had an SLR when I was 20 and it lasted me a good 4 years. However, I felt that I didnt make full use of it - too bulky to be brought out during Hari Raya, birthdays, outings, etc. In the end, memories were all snapped using my crappy phones.

Okay. Enough of being defensive. Ladies and gentlemen. I now have a proper camera to take pictures with. Best thing, it is small enough to be stored in my pocket.

Left pocket iTouch, right pocket camera, back pocket handphone.

P/S: If I can stuff my whole house in my pocket, I will.


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Telling the world

I didnt like Taio Cruz's voice until this.



...and for some reason, Rio made me cry.

Something is wrong with me.


P/S: THOR was good but I dont feel the hype.



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Go your own way

I feel apologetic towards the Mainland Chinese and Indians who are here on work and student permits. They have been dragged up left-right-centre during this election campaign...sometimes used as scapegoats.

I know many are here out of circumstances. I dont blame you. I just blame the government for not making your arrival smooth for us. Still, it's a democratic country and democracy breeds capitalism. At the end of the day, I know, it's all about the money.

This election is driving me bonkers. I do feel the PAP's strengths and I am very much aware of its achievements. Still, to have only 3 opposing voices in the current government (before dissolvement)is not a good thing. Sure, it is the minimum number in a democratic environment but we are not sure if these 3 voices are given enough "democratic" time - time to question, to oppose and to offer alternatives. We are not sure how strong are their voices during readings of bills. We are not sure how they are treated by the Party Whips and Leaders of the House. We are not sure if Abdullah Tarmugi had a neutral view towards them.

PAP have been with me for 31 years. The presence was felt when I first shook Lee Yock Suan's hand. He was an idol...my first Chinese hero. I knew him first before I knew Lee Kuan Yew. I grew up in a PAP system of meritocracy - where hard work was said to be rewarded. I worked hard but things didnt always fall in place. The system made me feel like a failure at the age of 12...failing to get into a top local school. I was sad throughout secondary school because I felt I missed out on a lot of things in life. I shouldnt feel that way, you know, but because of the education system, I felt so useless.

After diploma, I felt rejuvenated. I wanted to pursue my studies but then, I wasnt good enough for local universities. So I had to beg and borrow to pursue uni studies in Australia. My family wasnt rich but we felt that it was necessary for one of us to go away so that I could eke a better living upon graduation. My mom pawned whatever jewellery she had, my father borrowed heavily from his company. My father was a civil servant...I do appreciate govt's help but...on the other hand, they made money through interest. Bottomline is, PAP need to pay attention to the plight of the working class. I felt so helpless then.

I took politics as an elective in uni and from there I realised there were so many things wrong with our government but, I also found out that the problem was not just uniquely Singapore's, it was a global event.

Here comes my dilemma. After strong affiliation with PAP...only to fall out with it during my youth...I actually realised that it's not easy to please everyone. I began to see PAP's position. I studied the struggles and also the political history of democracy and found that democracy was expensive. I did a thesis on democracy being a farce and that, till today, had been my magnum opus.

If anyone were to be blame, I would blame the capitalists of the world but these capitalists were not chosen by us to make things right. We got our leaders and the least they could do was to stand up for us and make things less painful. Maybe the situation right now has been soothed by the government but we need to know that this is the best they can do and they have tried to make things ok. To me, all we need is a little transparency and some consideration for our feelings.

I can go on and on though I cannot guarantee it will all make sense. That's the problem when one is emotional. Some of these oppositions are good - they have good points and they have the residents' welfare in mind. Still, some use this election to incite hate. We dont want that. Ultimately, we want a cohesive parliament.

PAP, I thank you for your service. Your AUPE bursaries were something I looked forward to for 10 years of my life (primary and secondary). It did make me materialistic but...that's another story. I appreciate the lift you gave me and the fantastic AMK environment that you have created. My problem with you is that you have now grown arrogant. That's my beef with you.

And now...I must watch Arsenal versus Man United.

That's all.


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