Blue blood

Happy Friday, ya'll.

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Fortune's fool

What? This caught me off-guard. I thought, after Luhrmann's 1996 gem -- which is my #1 favourite movie of all time -- attempting to do a Romeo and Juliet flick in its original context will be boring. But, let's see. From the trailer, Hailee Steinfeld doesn't seem to have the charisma that Claire Danes had back then. But yes, we'll see.

Will I see it? Well, will I not watch my most favourite Shakespeare tragedy? No brainer. Spoiler or not (hah!), Luhrmann's or not, I'd watch it. Now, let's wait.

“Is love a tender thing?
It is too rough, too rude, too boisterous;
And it pricks like thorn.”

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Golden boy

And Robin van Persie, with his hat trick, brought the trophy back home to Old Trafford.

Hooooray!

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Tonight

We bring the baby home.

Home!


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Attention

Officer Mona reporting for duty.

Dusty uniform and just realised...my ranks are out of date.

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After 2 years...

...the uniform feels so uncomfortable.

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Ouch much?

"Everybody was saying we must have more leisure.

"Now they are complaining they are unemployed," said Prince Philip.

Touche.

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Atomic remix 2013

I was awake when news about the Boston blasts came in. Two people died, with one being an 8-year-old child.

On the other side of the world, almost 40 Iraqis have passed on.

It's not an equal world, just as I had studied in my politics class. Some people are more equal than the others. Some lives are just cheaper. We can argue, we can fight but it is not going to change mankind who always look for something to attack and conquer since the time of Adam.

Of course we strive to be civilised and thoughtful, but we cannot expect a universal acceptance or paradigm, for the very thing that makes us human is the freedom to do what we deem right.

In the meantime, on this part of this world, two new pimples just made an appearance on my face.

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Stalking love

This evening, I ended up at Tiong Bahru Plaza for my late lunch. This place is kind of growing on me and though I must say there are many peculiar people on this part of the earth (haha!), the vibe is kind of charming.

Charming...like this couple sitting in front of me.

Hope they are a real hubby-wife combo, not an adulterous pair having a soiree.

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Carry on

Two months of official unemployment.

One month of medication.

A little listless, a little jaundiced.

Side effects.

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Whenever I'm alone...

I thought this season's American Idol has been a ... blah. And I have been right. But the last performance by Candice Glover was awesome. Damn. That is not even the right word.



Now Blake Lewis had done a take on that before. I loved it then and...I love it now. Candice's version is different and surreal. The Cure should be very very happy.

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Naivete

So that was the look I saw many years ago.

Back then I wondered why. Was it something I did or didn't do? Did I do something wrong? Was I such a bad person that you perpetually had to wear that look?

Now, thanks to TV shows (yes, I'm a pop junkie...sue me!), I just found out what's with the face. It was guilt. Guilty all along.

Wow. I was so clueless.

Tsk.

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Will die on the road

"But that's the glory of foreign travel, as far as I am concerned. I don't want to know what people are talking about.

I can't think of anything that excites a greater sense of childlike wonder than to be in a country where you are ignorant of almost everything. Suddenly you are five years old again. You can't read anything, you have only the most rudimentary sense of how things work, you can't even reliably cross a street without endangering your life.

Your whole existence becomes a series of interesting guesses."

― Bill Bryson, Neither Here Nor There: Travels in Europe

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17

Day 17...many, many more days to go.

By the way, if I am not wrong, it is about 100 days to Ramadhan.

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Are you...blue?

More Thicke loving tonight.

Heh. Grinning like a 16-year-old in love.

Eh...that's a little wrong.

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NSFW!

I have always loved..LOVED..guys with (urgh) swag. And two of my swaggiest men happen to be in this video.

I am talking about you, Pharrell Williams and TI.




Of course, the girls have nothing on me but Pharrell and TI..hawt damn.

*fans*

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Learn to love again

This song is so...semangat.

Love it!

 

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Day 12

Sobriety is good.

:)

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Black parade down

Granted I was not a fan right from the beginning of their existence but when I heard their music from their second album in 2004, Three Chears for Sweet Revenge, I was hooked. And when their third album came in 2006 with all that rock opera hoopla (The Black Parade), I was sold.

Of course it was not an idea exclusive to their band but My Chemical Romance didnt take themselves too seriously. I love how they added elements of Goth and German Expressionism into their music. The 'art' was there, even though it was so subtle and some might even say thrashy.

Anyway, thank you My Chemical Romance for your music. Though you have dubbed as the lamer cousins of Queen, Pink Floyd, David Bowie and Green Day, your music and theatrics will be missed by me.

So long and goodnight.

"We hear the call to carry on, we'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone, believe me
Your memory will carry on, we'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
You're weary widow marches on...

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I who have nothing

"Sometimes you feel so wrapped up feeling so sorry for yourself you don't realise that your close friends are suffering too."

...

It has been 41 days of official unemployment and I shouldnt get used to this. Must not let brain go to waste.

Had a second interview with a foundation yesterday. I am not going to bank on anything lest I get disappointed. Not that I am not enthusiastic, I have come to a stage in life where everything happens for a reason and if it is meant to be, it is meant to be. Of course it is not without effort. That is why I made the effort to find jobs, attend interviews and present myself the best way I can. It is just that, after the session is over, I have no control over the outcome and I must be ready to accept what's next in line on my plate of life.

Talking about interviews, another major one tomorrow.
But hey, no expectations.
Just be me
Albeit at my best and most presentable self :)


Just another dork.

So, what have I been doing?

For the past week, I have been dedicating some time to a girl friend who is having a rough patch in her married life. Something happened and she wanted to 'escape' and went out every day to drink, to feel the buzz of being remotely happy.

I am not a teetotaler and unfortunately, I did enjoy the pseudo-bliss that alcohol could bring before. But something recently happened (another story) and some changes had to be introduced into my life. Anyway, yes, I am not a teetotaler but I cant say that I approve of what the friend is doing though I do understand her need to escape from her woes, even for a short while.

However, I feel, sometimes it is hard to keep up and no one has asked me if I am emotionally or mentally available. Granted, she is my friend and friends should always be there for each other but sometimes, I get the feeling of I-need-you-now-so-come-and-be-with-me-now-if-you-are-my-friend. Sometimes people forget to ask "I know you are tired but would you please meet me for a while? I can do with some company right now."

And...why am I tired?
Here's the other story.

I am tired of thinking, of organising my life, of attending interviews, doing some freelance work and recently being on medication. Recently, the sister and I had been told that we have sleeping tuberculosis cells in our body. They are not infectious or active but we have been put on preventive medication to stop the cells from ever waking up.

Medication will go on for 6 months and one of the side effects is potential listlessness. In order not to aggravate the condition, people who take this medication need to refrain from smoking, drinking and taking drugs. Again, unfortunately, I do the occasional chugging so here's where I have to stop. This may not be the best route to sobriety and atonement but it is still a path. So, I am working on being able to see the end of the path. I am sure it is worthy.

So, yeah.

I have explained my state but the friend goes on lamenting how sucky that I will not be able to 'fly high' with her. She has been a pal and I don't want to sever ties just because of this, and not when she is at her most vulnerable. But sometimes I wonder if people really do care about others all the time.

Do my friends really think about me just like how I always think about them?
Am I just overthinking everything?
Am I just jealous of her real-life drama?
Am I too self-absorbed that I take offence in my friends not checking on my feelings?
What kind of a person am I?

*breathes*

I have never done so much self-reflection in my life. It all started with the Burma trip.

Oh, I really need to write about that.

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