Off to bed...dejected

Ni wen wo ai
Ni you duo shen
Wo ai ni you ji fen
Wo de qing ye zhen
Wo de ai ye zhen
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin

Ni wen wo ai
Ni you duo shen
Wo ai ni you ji fen
Wo de qing bu yi
Wo de ai bu bian
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin

Qing qing de yi ge wen
Yi jin da dong wo de xin
Shen shen de yi duan qing
Jiao wo si nian dao ru jin

Ni wen wo ai
Ni you duo shen
Wo ai ni you ji fen
Ni qu xiang yi xiang
Ni qu kan yi kan
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin – Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin, Teresa Teng

I don’t know why. Maybe I just want something comforting, soothing and sweet. My life has been too hectic lately. Too many things going on. And yet, too many things not happening at all.

A hug?
I will be lucky enough if I get a pat on my shoulder.
A tap that says “It’s going to be fine. Just you wait and see.”

“And everything I know just fades away
And every time you go it hurts me so
I don't know why when I know we're free
Free to fly

And everything I know just fades away
And when a wildflower grows it picks its space
And that's the way it is when nature plays its lovely hand
You'll understand everything” (Wildflower, Sheryl Crow)

Okay I think I can barely think…am barely functioning. Too many emotions come and go today. This is sad because it is Friday and I am supposed to be at my happiest on Friday.

Oh well.
Maybe all is not lost.
Maybe a kind angel will save me out of this temporary misery.

A thousand times goodnight, angels and thieves.

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